Saturday, September 26, 2009
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Austin's Mom's call for a family fast sparked the strong feelings I have gained about fasting and I wanted to record them. I had a rough summer. We had fun, but having the three kids was hard. I'm not belittling any other mom's job or moaning that mine is so much harder than anyone else's, but I just don't seem to handle stress well. Once a long time ago my mom told me that she never thought I would have three kids because I'm fragile. I get overwhlemed, I cry, I scream, I throw tantrums right back at the kids, I throw things, I hide in my bedroom. I never thought that I would be a good mom, when growing up, I didn't look forward to it because I didn't think I could handle it and thought I would yell at them and not be the mom they needed.
Toward the end of the summer, I really felt like I was getting out of control. Not that I was going to beat them, but just screaming a lot and feeling like giving up. I decided that I needed to fast and to have Austin give me a blessing. I decided to make my fasts a weekly thing for a few weeks to gain the strength and patience and consistency that I needed to be a good mom and a good example to them.
I know that fasting works. I have seen miracles happen in my life and have felt much more in control and have realized that my screaming doesn't help anything, it just escalates the situation and teaches them to scream about their problems. I have found different resources to help me and the fact that Heavenly Father had school start up about the time I started fasting is no coincidence. :) I am grateful for our Savior and our Gospel and the teachings we have that show us we can keep trying and we can ask for help and receive it. I am thankful for fasting and the testimony I have gained of its power.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
So I have a new and convenient service project that brings me back to Grandma and Grandpa Murray. It is doing family search indexing online. It's easy, you just go to the website and register as a volunteer and then they guide you through the process of looking at old documents and transferring the information to what will become a searchable database. Plus you can do as much or as little as you want and can work on it anytime of day or night. It's also really cool to see the old documents and old handwriting styles and the old names. Believe me, I have an appreciation for neat handwriting now!
Many of you have probably seen the show Supernanny and have opinions about it. i personally like it, plus my mom is always saying," Did you see that episode last week?" Probably trying to tell me something right? That's OK, I can admit when I need help with the kids. So this last weekend I watched a few episodes while the kids were napping and inevitably the episode included getting the kids to go to sleep by themselves.
So I have gotten into a bit of a bad habit of snuggling Paris until she falls asleep or else she will scream and cry. So tonight is the night I decided we are getting done with that. We are currently nearly an hour into the put-them-back-in-their-bed-without-looking-at-them-or-talking-to-them-plan and I am heartily sick of it. I don't really see an end in sight but am determined to follow through with this so we don't have to do it again.
But to kill time between Paris getting out of bed and putting her back in again, I thought I would record some of her responses.
When we first started:
Lots of screaming and crying and shouts of "I want you Mommy!" "Please sweep with me Mommy!" "I need you Mommy!" and other such delights.
Now we have moved into the more quiet stage where she says (in a stern voice) "I don't want to Mommy!" "You're mean Mommy!"
Also, she noticed Cooper is downstairs and said,"That is my brother, I love my brother mommy!"
Now coming out and just saying, "Can I come downstairs mommy? Is that Ok?" in a sweet little voice. I never knew Paris knew all these manipulation techniques already!
She is out again, gotta go for round 157.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
The priesthood came to our door to collect fast offerings and they were greeted with loud screams and jumping off of couches and a delightful two-year-old girl wearing nothing but white sandals. She doesn't want to get potty-trained, but doesn't want her diaper either. That's great.
Another issue is that Will is giving a talk in primary today. Usually Austin takes care of the preparation for the talks. He has a special way to illustrate the talk notes that make it easy for a budding reader like Will to give the talk independently. Unfortunately, it will just be a talk that I whisper in his ear today because Will can't calm down enough to sit and work on the talk. Of course, if I would have remembered to prepare him earlier than today at 10 am that would help.
So I just invited him into the office for some quiet time to work on his talk. I asked him if he remembered the scripture that talks about the prophet's words being the same as Heavenly Father's. "No Mama, I don't like Jesus," Will responded very saucily. Knowing that this was a very blasphemous thing to say, he quickly bowed his head and asked Heavenly Father to forgive him.
Then he put his arm around my neck and said, "Don't worry Mom, I'm back in Jesus World!"
It's clear that I am providing a fantastic example to my children of how to be reverent, humble and draw closer to the Lord.